My Excuse for Not Blogging Lately

I know it has been forever and a day since I have posted anything. But it has been a crazy past couple of weeks. I won’t bore/depress you by going on about the events; let’s just say it included the shortest Friday afternoon ever!! Followed by the Longest Saturday, with me thinking if I can just get through today, in the Morning it will be better. Morning light always makes everything better…Right??  Well not in this case, which led into the longest week ever that involved Double ear infections and many emotional break downs.  I thought I was tough I told myself before this deployment I can do it I am not the first wife to do this and I defiantly won’t be the last!! Well that first week there was a lot of I don’t think I can do this going through my head. I found this quote on another blog that I follow "to love a soldier by Eleanor Roosevelt 

“You gain strength, courage, and confidence by every experience in which you really stop to look fear in the face You are able to say to yourself, I have lived through the horror. I can take the next thing that comes along. YOu must do the thing ou think you cannot do.”

Then she stated you can do this for you were chosen for this.

So I keep on repeating to myself we can do this. God chose my husband to be one of the few heroes in this country and he chose me to be his wife to support him. And  I have to believe I can do this so that I can Have the happy strong voice when I talk to him to give him courage and support b/c the last thing that he needs to worry about is how things are going back home.  So this next week it has gotten easier If I focus on today I believe I can do it, it is when I look at the big picture and think about tomorrow, And how different things will be, how MaKenna will have changed all the new tricks she learns from day to day that he won’t see, That is when  the words” I can’t”  begin to creep back up and the sick feeling in my stomach comes back. I know that if I just trust God with each day pretty soon 365 +/- tomorrows will have come and gone,  and we will be together!!!

Okay I apologize I guess it was a little depressing post The next one will be better I promise, I don’t like to be all mopy (not real sure how to spell that or if it is even a word but I mean depressing.) Plus I am super blessed in so many ways and have no reason to complain, One of which is having a wonderful husband and marriage so that when he is gone I feel like half of me is missing and I am lost without him. I personally think that is a good problem to have. Don't think it would be a great example of our marriage if I was happy he wasn't here :)

Here are some pictures from the day he left. It still amazes me that this is actually my husband Flying this thing, I mean How hot is that!!! And I am super proud of him!!

MaKenna was convinced she could fly with him. She said "My carseat fits perfectly in this seat"