My Excuse for Not Blogging Lately

I know it has been forever and a day since I have posted anything. But it has been a crazy past couple of weeks. I won’t bore/depress you by going on about the events; let’s just say it included the shortest Friday afternoon ever!! Followed by the Longest Saturday, with me thinking if I can just get through today, in the Morning it will be better. Morning light always makes everything better…Right??  Well not in this case, which led into the longest week ever that involved Double ear infections and many emotional break downs.  I thought I was tough I told myself before this deployment I can do it I am not the first wife to do this and I defiantly won’t be the last!! Well that first week there was a lot of I don’t think I can do this going through my head. I found this quote on another blog that I follow "to love a soldier by Eleanor Roosevelt 

“You gain strength, courage, and confidence by every experience in which you really stop to look fear in the face You are able to say to yourself, I have lived through the horror. I can take the next thing that comes along. YOu must do the thing ou think you cannot do.”

Then she stated you can do this for you were chosen for this.

So I keep on repeating to myself we can do this. God chose my husband to be one of the few heroes in this country and he chose me to be his wife to support him. And  I have to believe I can do this so that I can Have the happy strong voice when I talk to him to give him courage and support b/c the last thing that he needs to worry about is how things are going back home.  So this next week it has gotten easier If I focus on today I believe I can do it, it is when I look at the big picture and think about tomorrow, And how different things will be, how MaKenna will have changed all the new tricks she learns from day to day that he won’t see, That is when  the words” I can’t”  begin to creep back up and the sick feeling in my stomach comes back. I know that if I just trust God with each day pretty soon 365 +/- tomorrows will have come and gone,  and we will be together!!!

Okay I apologize I guess it was a little depressing post The next one will be better I promise, I don’t like to be all mopy (not real sure how to spell that or if it is even a word but I mean depressing.) Plus I am super blessed in so many ways and have no reason to complain, One of which is having a wonderful husband and marriage so that when he is gone I feel like half of me is missing and I am lost without him. I personally think that is a good problem to have. Don't think it would be a great example of our marriage if I was happy he wasn't here :)

Here are some pictures from the day he left. It still amazes me that this is actually my husband Flying this thing, I mean How hot is that!!! And I am super proud of him!!

MaKenna was convinced she could fly with him. She said "My carseat fits perfectly in this seat"

2 Months Old

MaKenna I can not Believe you are already 2 months old!! You are just growing up too Fast. At 2 months you way 12lbs 1oz and are 22.6in  long. You still love to just lay down and kick and get fussy when you want to be put down. Maybe that means I hold you to much I don't know. But you also like to cuddle. Which Mommy loves!! When mommy is crying b/c she misses Daddy you lay your head up under mommy's chin with your arms around her arms and are just as still as can be. It is so amazing the stuff you seem to already know/sense, Mommy is so blessed to have you.
  You fight sleep in the afternoon when it comes to settling down for the night, you don't won't to miss anything. Mommy walks and bounces you until you fall asleep. Some people may say that you are spoiled b/c of this but I just say you are helping mommy loose those last 5lbs.
  We still don't have much of a routine when it comes to sleeping and eating, we just pretty much do whatever you want. You eat when you are hungry and sleep when you get sleepy. Typically you eat every 2 hrs. When you take a bottle it is 5ozs. For the past week you have been going to bed about 8:30/9:00 and don't wake up again until around 3:00 to eat again. And then again at 5:30 and you are usually up for the Day.
  Mommy also thinks that you might be teething already but we are not sure. You drool a lot!! And you love to put your fist in your mouth or anything you can get to your mouth you will have slober all over you at times
  You love to be read to. Nana was amazed the other night b/c as soon as she would quite reading you would get fussy until she would start back. You also like to read the books Daddy recorded for you You coo and grin as he reads.
   I love you so much little girl and am so thankful That God has blessed your Dad and I with such a perfect wonderful little girl. Can't wait to see all the new tricks you learn in the next month

Deployment Ceromony

Sunday was one of the dreaded Days for the upcoming deployment for me. When it comes about you know the leaving is close. And you have to face it. We are facing this deployment by just focusing on one day at a time trying to not concentrate on what tomorrow is bringing but on this Minute that we are together as a family. Don't get me wrong we have been preparing and planning but we both choose that while we are together to focus on just that and not let anything else damper the situation. Now don't get me wrong I have break downs and of course here lately more often than not. But we are focused on the fact that God already knows what tomorrow brings, He has it under control and has the best for us planned, and he will give us the Strength that we need to get through what tomorrow will bring. But tomorrow is coming way to soon for us.
  So my goal for Sunday was to stay as busy as possible to get us through the day and to be strong!! So Sunday morning of course Zach had to leave about 0630 for drill. So My goal for the morning was to get MaKenna and me ready for church and to church. Which would be another check off our list of things we can get done by ourselves. We made it!! and Only 2 minutes late  for Sunday School. And might I add I remembered the Shower gift and Easter eggs and Candy that I had to take to church that day.
  We left after Sunday School to come home to get ready for the ceremony. Which I thought would give us plenty of time. Well MaKenna Decided she wanted to be extra hungry and eat for a long time! So My be there 15 min early as I like to always be especially to a military event (b/c all who are familiar with anyone in the service know they get there 15min before the 15min early rule) Well my being early went out the window. We got in the car and well lets just say I didn't obey all traffic rules ( I might have exceeded the speed limit a little) But I decided I would just give the Mr policeman my sob story in hopes he would let me out of a ticket. On the way just about everyone in our party called wanting to know if I was there yet I had a little breakdown then but maintained my composer parked about a mile away from the building got my 15 bags and MaKenna in her Car seat and began the trek across the parking lot in My Heels! And we all know I don't do Heels. But I made it without breaking anything and walked in just as the Ceremony was starting.
   We had a lot of Family come to the ceremony and are once again thankful of how blessed we are to have such support. Afterwards every one came to the house, and hung out for a little while.

Doesn't she look adorable in her red white and blue

Kathleen was being very patriotic as well

          She was give out from all the visiting and past out in Poppa"s arms

  

One Month and Flea Market

Saturday MaKenna was officially One Month old! Zach had drill this weekend, which was just absolutely crazy and wrong in so many ways!!! Why in the world Uncle Sam do you need my husband for a full weekend when you already have in 10 waking hrs of every week day and in less than2 weeks you will have him 24/7 for a whole year. Can I not have One weekend with him. But I won't get on that tangent b/c no body wants to hear that and Certainly Uncle Sam doesn't care what I think. :). Sorry I have been in the Army life enough to know that is how it is you just deal with it. I just had to vent a little.
   So Friday MaKenna and I went to do a little shopping since Daddy was flying all night. Because Mommy needed a new Dress for Uncle Ben and Aunt Cassie's wedding next weekend. I am still unable to fit into my prepregnancy Tops! I know I shouldn't be complaining I have always said I wanted a little more up top But I didn't know It would require me to by a whole new wardrobe. Well the shopping trip was unsuccessful in buying a dress. But I must say MaKenna and I are getting really good at the whole going out and shopping thing!
     Then on Saturday She and I had a Mission to accomplish. Mommy and Daddy wanted to get Uncle Ben and Aunt Cassie this certain gift for there wedding and the only place to get it is at Santuck. In case any of you don't know Santuck is only the first Saturday in each month and is closed Jan and Feb. Last Month going to trade day the day after coming home from the hospital was out of the question. So this day was our only chance since they get married this week. So on Saturday off MaKenna and I went. We left about 0900 thinking traffic would have died down by that time since all the avid Flea Marketers get there around 0430. Well after driving 7 miles (the distance from my house to the Flea Market) and 2 hrs later we got there. (I told MaKenna the things we do for her Aunt and Uncle. We got there and completed our mission and bought a couple of other things for MaKenna, And Mommy knew it was getting close to time for MaKenna to eat and she had to go to the Bathroom. So we took a break at the car for her to eat and then headed home. The only problem with the flea Market was there wasn't any way for me to use the Bathroom with her. I contemplated going to the woods but couldn't find any that was secluded enough, b/c we all know for us country girls it isn't anything to find a place in the woods when you have too. But we made it home and just added that to the list of things MaKEnna and I can do by ourselves!

Our Lunch Break At Santuck

We Didn't get any really good photos And were going to take more later. But Didn't get around to It. 

                                        This is why we didn't get around to it!